Today started out pretty rough. I’m trying to get used to a new schedule and it feels a little forced still. Nothing is habit yet and I keep forgetting things – like dinner. (Oh yeah, I need to provide that for people. huh.) So, by lunch time I’d sworn under my breath (out loud) at a woman in the store who ran her cart into mine (and acted like nothing happened), hydroplaned over a median (no injuries or damage) on the way home from grocery shopping, reacted to my children with (a bit much) passive-aggressive rudeness, and beaten myself up over how off I felt (I considered calling this post, “I Suck Today.”) So, all-in-all, not a great morning.
After a few tears and deep breaths, I went to the bathroom and washed my face with some cold water. (Nobody wants to play taxi-mom all afternoon with puffy, red eyes. Am I right?) When I looked up and saw my reflection, I saw the necklace I’d put on that morning.
Backstory: I couldn’t decide what to wear this morning. I dressed and redressed. I finally figured that out and then moved on to finding the right necklace. I looked at all the ones I had hanging on my jewelry tree and none were right. I tried a few on, just in case…nope. Where’s the one I need? I knew something was missing, even though I couldn’t remember what it was. Then I remembered I had some jewelry in a little bag from a trip a month or so ago. And, voila! I found one of my favorite necklaces. How could I forget it? As I put it on I thought, “I must need grounding today.”
I get it. I need to be grounded. I need to breathe. I need to give myself a break. I need to not force things. I am okay. Thanks.
Just like that, I decided to have a different ending to my day. And I did.
The day began feeling off-kilter, but with some help from God, the universe, my ancestors (I’m not really sure what energies were at work) it ended feeling much more on-kilter. I don’t think ‘on-kilter’ is a thing, but I certainly felt more even-keeled, more okay, more content.
So, moral of the story…
Don’t be afraid to start again, as many times as needed. Sometimes in the middle of the day.